Sea of Golden Sand: Chapter 9
I dreamt a very long dream.
In the dream, there are no lead-grey waves and lonely islands, but there is a stretch of azure blue desert—I think, if the desert is blue, that should look like the sea.
On the boundless surface of the ocean, a youth that looks like the Sea God holds the hand of a girl. They walk towards the horizon.
The Sea God lifts his hand, and waves bloom one after another under the girl’s feet.
Schools of fish dive. White seagulls circle over their heads, and sing as they land on the girl’s shoulder.
That is the happiest day of the Sea God’s life.
At the moment he drops a light kiss on the girl’s lips, the Sea God offers up the entire ocean for the girl he loves dearly.
However when I wake up from my dream, no matter how, I can’t recall what the Sea God looks like.
Natasha: Your Highness… I originally thought after milady left last time that milady would never be back, but now, although milady has returned, but still…
MC: …
Natasha: It’s as if someone has pulled the soul out of milady… did something happen?
MC: Should… be nothing…
MC: Lately, have I forgotten something?
Natasha: … no, milady has been very quiet, and has not been running amok.
MC: …
MC: (But why does it constantly feel like something is missing…)
Natasha: Your Highness, milady is staring blankly at this fish again…
MC: … Natasha, tell me, where did this fish come from?
Natasha: Milady said before, it is a gift from the person most important to milady.
MC: The most important person…
MC: (The most important person… who is it…)
Natasha: Your Royal Highness! Why is milady standing beside the lake again!
MC: Natasha… previously, did I encounter someone in this lake?
Natasha: Your Highness, how could there be anyone in the lake?
MC: That’s true…
On the placid surface of the lake floats a little boat. I just feel I seem to also have walked on the surface of this lake like this little boat.
Natasha: Your Highness what is milady doing! If milady walks any further, milady will sink into the lake!
I lower my head, and then I discover my feet are already submerged in the lake.
So it turns out… I actually can’t walk on the lake’s surface?
Then, where exactly did that blurry impression come from?
My days as a princess continue to be calm and uninteresting like before, but I no longer have thoughts of escaping this palace.
I keep feeling as if there is a dark shadow, and it is burning a hole in my heart like a flame.
I fall into this deep deep hole, and am being consumed by the void little by little.
Natasha: Your Highness, is milady worrying again?
MC: …
Natasha: Recently there’s been new happenings in the royal city, shall I tell them to milady?
Natasha: I hear, those infiltrators who snuck into the palace some time ago, the royal guard has found their base.
MC: … Infiltrators?
Natasha: Mmhmm, the Lemurians, the recent assassinations are all their doing.
MC: Lemurians…
Natasha: The king is very angry, and says he wants to find all of the Lemurians in the city, and leave them out in the !
MC: !!!
MC: Why?
Natasha: Rumor says their ultimate target is to awaken the oceans… but the world already has no oceans.
Natasha: If they were to be allowed to have their way, then when the floods come, won’t everyone drown?
MC: Awaken the ocean…
MC: … Where’s Rafayel?
Natasha: Rafayel?
When this name comes out of my lips, I myself am stunned for a moment.
MC: Why… this name sounds so familiar…
Natasha: Ah, I remember now, this seems to be the name of that Lemurian youth that was gifted to milady as a present a long time ago.
MC: Lemurian youth…?
Inside that clump of black flame in my mind, it seems there’s something wriggling, like a butterfly, about to break out of its cocoon.
Under the guidance of some intuition, I walk to the bed and feel around for an object from under my pillow.
Natasha: … a fishtail beacon?!
Natasha: This is a weapon used by Lemurians! Your Highness, how does milady have this sort of thing?
MC: Fishtail beacon? It’s called a fishtail beacon?
I place this beacon in the middle of my hand. It’s as if previously there was someone who held it together with me, and sliced open our palms.
I seem to remember the first time I saw it, it was stuck into the railing of the balcony, the swaying end of it carrying news I had been looking forward to for a long time.
And it seems… there was also someone who held my hand, who told me—
“Hold it like this, and I will be able to sense you.”
MC: …
Without active thought I hold this fishtail beacon with both hands. It vibrates in my palms, glowing faintly.
MC: Rafayel… Rafayel…
In my hand, I tightly clutch that fishtail beacon, and look again at Natasha.
MC: Natasha, I seem to remember now…
Natasha: Your Highness, how is my lady? My lady is a little strange today.
MC: I remember now… today, I seem to have a very important appointment…
MC: (Rafayel seems to have said… he is about to leave here…)
At this moment, if we’re talking about anything that I will miss in this royal city, then there is only this friend before me who has taken care of me for so many years.
MC: Natasha!
I hug her tightly.
MC: After I leave here, you must make sure you live your own life.
Natasha: Your Highness…?
I give her one last glance, and then release her, and turn to leave.
The sky is clear and bright, sixty-four waterways leading outside the city reflecting rippling light like scattered pieces of silver.
Boat after boat passes each other on the riverway. People are playing lutes, singing songs. This royal city, like a white pearl, is still as beautiful and shining as ever.
I recall, Rafayel previously followed one of these rivers to leave here.
Once I longed endlessly to see the liveliness of the royal city, but now it no longer gives me pause for even half a step.
I run through the large crowded streets and small alleys, gripping that fishtail beacon in my hand tighter and tighter, and completely don’t notice my palm has been pricked and is freshly bleeding.
Everything I have forgotten is like a dream, left behind in the ruins of the Island of Songs, left behind in that ancient golden Lemurian prophecy burnt away by clusters of black flames.
And now, I’ve woken from this dream.
I remember everything.
MC: Rafayel, wait for me… you must wait for me…
Outside of my field of vision, the bloodied fishtail beacon is faintly glowing.
Standing outside the post, Amund’s planned departure time has come.
Amund: What are you still waiting for?
Rafayel: …
Amund: I have been a Lemurian elder for generations and generations. A Sea God like you who dares to forcefully rewrite the Tome of the Sea God, this is a first.
Amund: Since you can’t bear to take her heart, then you can only , you really—
Rafayel: As long as Lemurians can return to our homeland, then that’s fine.
Rafayel: Whether or not the Sea God exists is not that important.
Having finished speaking, Rafayel doesn’t open his mouth again.
Actually, from just a moment ago, he has felt that in his heart it seems something is slowly growing out, like a seedling, like a sprouting climbing vine, circling round and round, ensnaring his soul.
Rafayel: …
Amund spots the once-again-glowing fishtail beacon in his hand.
Amund: This fishtail beacon… didn’t you say you’d completely destroyed your bond with her?
At this moment, from inside the city comes the sound of a girl shouting—
Rafayel turns back. In the bustling crowd, he can only see a fluttering white robe.
Like a butterfly, and like a little silver-white fish, swimming rapidly towards himself.
Rafayel: How… is this possible…
MC: Rafayel—!!!
Luckily he hasn’t gone very far. I manage to catch up to them.
On the white camel, it’s the first time I see that usually calm Lemurian reveal such a surprised expression.
Rafayel: You…
At a spot a short distance from him, I stop my footsteps.
MC: You’re thinking of leaving me, and just quietly running away by yourself like this?
Trying hard to calm my heaving breath, I take step after step towards him.
MC: If gods truly do exist in this world… then Rafayel, you must be the worst one.
Rafayel: …
MC: As a god, how can you abandon your own follower.
MC: You promised, you’d bring me to see the ocean.
I arrive beside the camel and lift my head to look at him.
MC: I won’t forget that easily.
Rafayel: …
MC: I won’t be returning to the palace.
Rafayel: … but do you know where we are going?
MC: The bond is there for eternity, no matter where you go you can’t shake me off.
Rafayel: You’ve thought it through?
Rafayel pulls on my hand, and I use his strength to climb up and sit behind him.
Rafayel: Perhaps one day, I will still cut out your heart.
MC: I said it earlier.
MC: If you really are the god who can take my heart away, then…
MC: Then bring me with you.
Dust is stirred up. The pure white divine camel leaves, stepping slowly towards the setting sun.
Deep within the palace, the little blue fish swimming lazily in the fishbowl has served its purpose, and gradually turns into a single bright silver scale, sinking to the bottom of the water.
That palace and royal city that has seen ninety-nine escape attempts… on this purple cloud-filled evening, just like that, the princess leaves them behind her without even a backwards glance.
On this planet Philos with dust-filled skies, the oceans have been dried up for thirty thousand years, and the golden prophecy has faded.
Perhaps, there will never again be raging rivers and wide, deep oceans here.
But that princess with the heart of a god, and the sea god who saved her—that Lemurian who led her out of her invisible cage time after time…
Eventually, they still met each other.
—<<Legends of Deepspace - Sea of Golden Sand (Volume One)>>
—But Rafayel, after we leave the royal city, what kind of place do we want to go?
—Didn't you say, you wanted to see the sea.
—We’ll go look for Whalefall City.
I dreamt a long dream.
No grey waves, no lonesome islands. A desert of blue- I think if the desert is azure, it ought to look like the sea.
In boundless blue, a young man, the God of the Sea, holds a girl's hand. They walk to the horizon.
The God of the Sea gestures for waves to bloom under the girl's feet.
Fish swim. White gulls circle overhead and sing as they land on her shoulder.
To the God of the Sea, this is the happiest day of his life.
And when he kisses her, he devotes the entire ocean to his beloved.
Waking up from my dream, I don't recall how the God of the Sea appeared.
Natasha: Your Highness, I thought we would never see each other again. Now you are back, but...
MC: ...
Natasha: Your Highness seems despondent, a shell. What happened?
MC: I... Nothing... happened... Have I forgotten something?
Natasha: ...No, Your Highness has been well, and yet try to run away again.
MC: ... (Why does it feel like I'm missing...)
Natasha: Your Highness has been staring at the fish again...
MC: Miss Natasha, who gifted me this fish?
Natasha: Your Highness's most important person.
MC: My most important person... (Who could be...)
Natasha: Your Highness! Why are you by the lake again?!
MC: Miss Natasha... Did I meet someone here by the lake?
Natasha: How can a person be in the water, Your Highness?
MC: You're right...
A boat floats peacefully on the lake. I feel like I've walked on its surface before.
Natasha: Your Highness will fall in by taking another step!
I look down to see my feet are submerged.
Ah... so I can't walk on water.
Where... Where did that blurry memory come from?
My life as a princess is calm and a bore, yet I have no will to leave the palace. Instead, a dark shadow is burning my heart like a flame. Falling into this abyss, I'm slowly being eaten away.
Natasha: Your Highness seems preoccupied.
MC: ...
Natasha: There's been a development in the city. Is Your Highness interested? The guards have found the enemy's base.
MC: ...The enemy?
Natasha: The Lemurians. They're responsible for the recent assassinations.
MC: Lemurians have...
Natasha: The King is upset. His Majesty wants to capture all Lemurians and leave them to dry in the desert!
MC: !!! Why?
Natasha: Rumors say their ultimate plan is to awaken the seas... Yet they have long since dried. If the Lemurians are successful, won't everyone drown below the waves?
MC: To awaken the seas...Where's Rafayel?
Natasha: Rafayel?
I am stunned the moment this name falls from my lips.
MC: Why... does it sound so familiar?
Natasha: Oh, I believe it's the name of the young Lemurian that was gifted to Your Highness years ago.
MC: Young Lemurian...
Within the dark, fiery recesses of my mind, a butterfly seems to burst out from its cocoon. I go to my bed and take an object from underneath my pillow.
Natasha: ...The Fishtail Beacon?! Lemurians use that as a weapon! Why does Your Highness have it?
MC: It's called a Fishtail Beacon?
I hold it. Possibly, I've held it with someone when they cut our palms. The first time I saw it embedded on my balcony's railing. Attached to it was a note I had been waiting for. I remember...someone holding my hand. And...
"I'll be able to sense Your Highness's presence, holding it like this."
MC: ...
I hold the Fishtail Beacon. It vibrates in my hands, glowing faintly.
MC: Rafayel... Rafayel...
Clenching the beacon, I look back at Miss Natasha.
MC: I remember...
Natasha: Your Highness is acting strange. Is something wrong?
MC: ...I have an important meeting today. (Rafayel said...he would leave the city...)
If there is anything left for me, it's the person who's taken care of me all these years.
MC: Miss Natasha!
I hug her tightly.
MC: After I depart, please take care of yourself.
Natasha: Your Highness...?
I gaze at her one last time before letting her go.
The weather is beautiful. Shining like silver, 64 rivers run to the city outskirts. Numerous boats float along the water. People play music and sing, and the pearl-white city is radiant. I recall Rafayel used one of the rivers to leave this place.
Observing the city's hustle and bustle was once my wish. Now I pay it no attention. I run through the streets, grasping the beacon even tighter. I haven't even realized my hand is bleeding.
Everything I've forgotten is a dream left behind in the Island of Songs along with the burnt remnants of the ancient Lemurian prophecy.
I am a dreamer waking up from her dream. I remember everything.
MC: Rafayel, wait for me... You have to wait for me...
I don't even notice the bloodied Fishtail Beacon's glow.
Outside the station, Amund sees it's time to leave.
Amund: What is Your Quintessence waiting for?
Rafayel: ...
Amund: I have served as a Lemurian Elder for centuries. Your Quintessence is the first God of the Sea who dared rewrite the Tome of the Sea God. Refusing to take her heart, Your Quintessence's life must burn away. Your--
Rafayel: What matters is our opportunity to return home. Having a God of the Sea makes no difference.
Rafayel remains silent. A sensation akin to spouting vines slowly climbs from his heart, ensnaring his very soul.
Rafayel: ...
Amund spots the glowing Fishtail Beacon being held.
Amund: ...Didn't Your Quintessence say the bond was destroyed?
A girl's shout can be heard from the city.
Rafayel turns back. Among the humans, he can only see a disheveled white robe.
She is a butterfly, or rather a silvery white fish swimming towards him.
Rafayel: How...
MC: Rafayel!
Fortunately, he was still here. I managed to catch up to them. It's the first time I've seen that Lemurian be so surprised.
Rafayel: You...
I stop some distance away from him.
MC: You're going to abandon me and leave alone?
I try to catch my breath as I walk toward him.
MC: If gods do exist in this world, the Rafayel, you must be the worst one.
Rafayel: ...
MC: How could you leave your follower behind? You also promised to show me the sea.
I stop by the white camel and meet his gaze.
MC: I am not one who easily forgets.
Rafayel: ...
MC: I won't be returning to the palace.
Rafayel: ...Do you even know where we are headed?
MC: Our vow is eternal. You'll have to do more to be rid of me.
Rafayel: You've decided, then?
Rafayel takes my hand. With his help, I get on the camel and sit behind him.
Rafayel: I may actually take your heart.
MC: I told you before. If you are a god who can claim my heart, then... Claim it. Take me away.
– Legends From Deepspace: Sea of Golden Sands Chapter 1.
— Rafayel, where are we going?
— Didn't you want to visit the sea?
— We'll head to Whalefall City.
我做了一场很漫长的梦。
梦里,没有铅灰色的海浪和孤独的岛屿,而是一片蔚蓝的沙漠--我想,如果沙漠是蓝色的,那应该就是海的样子。
无边无际的海面上,一个海神模样的少年牵着一位少女的手,向天边走去。
海神抬手,浪花便在少女的脚下一朵朵绽放。
鱼群潜跃,白色的鸥鸟在他们头顶盘旋,轻鸣着落在少女的肩上。
那是海神生命中最快乐的一天。
当他在少女唇上落下轻吻的那一刻,海神为自己心爱的女孩,献上了整片海洋。
可是从梦中醒来后,我却怎么也记不起海神的模样。
娜莎:殿下……我本来以为您上次出走后就不会再回来了,可现在,您虽然回来了,但……
玩家:……
娜莎:您好像被什么人抽了魂一样……是发生什么了吗?
玩家:应该……没什么吧…
玩家:我最近,忘记过什么事吗?
娜莎:……没有,您最近都很安静,也没有乱跑。
玩家:……
玩家:(可为什么,总觉得少了些什么呢……)
娜莎:殿下,您又在对着这条鱼发呆了……
玩家:……娜莎,你说,这条鱼是从哪里来的呢?
娜莎:您以前说,是一个对您“第一重要的人”送的。
玩家:第一重要的人……
玩家:(第一重要的人……是谁呢……)
娜莎:公主殿下!您怎么又在湖边站着了!
玩家:娜莎……我以前,是不是在这片湖里遇到过什么人?
娜莎:殿下,怎么会有人能待在湖里呢?
玩家:也对……
平静的湖面上飘着鸢尾舟,我只觉得,我好像也曾像这小船一样在这片湖面上行走过。
娜莎:殿下您要做什么!您再走的话会沉进湖里的!
我低下头,才发现自己的双脚已经没入湖中。
原来……我并不会在湖面上走路吗?
那么,那个模糊的印象到底是从哪里来的呢……
作为公主的日子依旧平静且无趣,可我再也没有逃离这座宫殿的想法了。
我总觉得,有一团黑色的影子,它像火焰一样把我的心烧出了一个空洞。
我跌进这个深深的空洞,被一点一点蚕食在虚无之中。
娜莎:殿下,您又在想心事吗?
玩家:……
娜莎:最近王城里又有新的见闻了,我讲给您听好不好?
娜莎:听说,前阵子那伙潜入王城的潜行者,王城守卫们找到他们的据点了。
玩家:……潜行者?
娜莎:嗯,就是利莫里亚人,最近的刺杀都是他们做的。
玩家:利莫里亚人……
娜莎:国王很生气,说要把全城的利莫里亚人都找出来,丢在沙漠里曝晒而死…!
玩家:!!!
玩家:为什么?
娜莎:听说他们最终的目的,是要唤醒海洋……可世界上早就没有海洋了。
娜莎:要是真让他们得逞,洪水一来,大家不就都淹死了?
玩家:唤醒海洋……
玩家:……祁煜呢?
娜莎:祁煜?
这个名字脱口而出时,我自己也恍惚了一瞬。
玩家:为什么……这个名字这么耳熟……
娜莎:啊,我想起来了,这好像是很早以前,被当做礼物送给您的那个利莫里亚少年的名字。
玩家:利莫里亚少年……?
我脑海中那团黑色的火焰里,仿佛有什么东西在涌动,像一只蝴蝶,就要破茧而出。
在某种直觉的引导下,我走到床边,从枕头下摸出了什么。
娜莎:……鱼尾标?!
娜莎:这就是利莫里亚人用的凶器!殿下,您怎么会有这种东西!
玩家:鱼尾标?它叫做鱼尾标?
我把这枚标放在手中,仿佛曾有什么人和我一起握着它,划破掌心。
我似乎想起第一次见到它的样子,它插在阳台的栏杆上,摇晃的尾翼上夹着我期待已久的消息。
又好像……还有什么人曾握着我的手,告诉我说——
“像这样把它握住,我就能感应到你了”。
玩家:……
我不自觉地双手握住这枚鱼尾标,它在我的掌心震动着,发出浅浅的光。
玩家:祁煜……祁煜……
手中,我攥紧那枚鱼尾标,再次看向娜莎。
玩家:娜莎,我好像想起来了……
娜莎:殿下,您怎么了?您今天怪怪的。
玩家:我想起来了……今天,我好像有一场很重要的约定……
玩家:(祁煜好像说过……他就要离开这里了……)
这一刻,如果说现在的我对这座王城还有什么留恋,便只有眼前这个照顾了我许多年的朋友。
玩家:娜莎!
我紧紧地拥抱住她。
玩家:我离开这里后,你一定要好好过自己的生活。
娜莎:殿下……?
我最后再看了她一眼,便将她放开,转身离开。
天色晴朗,六十四道通往城外的水路泛着碎银一样的波光。
一艘艘鸢尾舟在河道上穿梭着,人们弹着月琴,唱着歌,这座白珍珠般的王城依旧明媚明亮。
我想起来,祁煜曾经就是沿着其中的一条河流离开这里的。
王城里的热闹承载了我以前无尽的向往,可如今却再也无法让我停驻半步。
我跑过熙攘的大街小巷,将手中那枚鱼尾标越握越紧,全然不觉掌心已被刺出鲜血。
我遗忘的一切就像一场梦,遗落在了歌岛的遗迹里,遗落在被一簇簇黑色的火焰烧却了的、那古老的、金色的利莫里亚预言中。
而现在,这个梦醒了。
我什么都想起来了。
玩家:祁煜,等我……一定要等我……
在我没有看到的视野里,沁了血的鱼尾标正在隐隐发光。
驿站外,安蒙计划中的出发时间已经到了。
安蒙:还在等什么?
祁煜:……
安蒙:我这一支世世代代做利莫里亚人的长老,你这样强行改写《海神书》的海神,还是第一次见。
安蒙:既然舍不得取她的心,那就只能点燃海神自己的生命了,你真的——
祁煜:能让利莫里亚人回到故乡就好。
祁煜:有没有海神存在,不那么重要。
说完,祁煜便再没有开口。
其实从刚才起,他就感觉到心里仿佛有什么渐渐生长了出来,像苗,像抽穗的藤蔓,攀攀绕绕,牵绊住他的灵魂。
祁煜:……
安蒙看到他手中再次发出光亮的鱼尾标。
安蒙:这鱼尾标……你不是说已经彻底烧毁和她的契约了么?!
这时,城门内传来女孩的喊声——
祁煜回过头去,拥挤的人群中,他只看见一袭翻动的白色外袍。
像蝴蝶,又像一条银白色的小鱼,飞快地向自己游来。
祁煜:怎么……可能……
玩家:祁煜——!!!
幸好他还没有走远,我赶上了。
白色的骆驼上,我是第一次看到那个向来冷静的利莫里亚人露出这样惊诧的表情。
祁煜:你……
在离他还有一段距离的地方,我停下脚步。
玩家:你想丢下我,就这样一个人悄悄跑掉吗?
努力平复急促的喘息,一步步向他走去。
玩家:如果,这个世界上真的存在神明的话……那祁煜,你一定是最差劲的那一个。
祁煜:……
玩家:身为神明,你怎么可以抛弃自己的信徒。
玩家:你答应过,要带我去看海。
我来到骆驼旁,抬头看着他。
玩家:我不会那么容易忘记。
祁煜:……
玩家:我不回王宫去了。
祁煜:……但你知道我们要去哪里吗?
玩家:契约是永恒存在的,去哪里你也甩不掉我。
祁煜:想好了?
祁煜拉住我的手,我借力蹬上去,坐在他身后。
祁煜:也许有一天,我还是会剜去你的心。
玩家:我早就说过了。
玩家:如果,你真的是能取走我的心的神明,那么……
玩家:就带我走吧。
沙尘腾起,洁白神圣的骆驼踏着夕阳缓缓离去。
深深的宫殿中,正在鱼缸中悠游的蓝色小鱼也完成了使命,渐渐化作一枚银亮的鳞片,沉没在水底。
曾经99次想要逃离的宫殿,王城,在这个紫云漫天的傍晚,就这样被公主头也不回地甩落在身后了。
在菲罗斯这颗沙尘漫天的星球上,海洋干涸了三万年,金色预言也已经失了色。
也许,这里再也不会有奔腾的河流和宽广深邃的大海。
可那拥有神明之心的公主,和拯救了她的海神——那一次次将她从无形的牢笼中带走的利莫里亚人……
终于,他们还是相遇了。
——《深空传说·金沙之海(第一卷)》
——不过祁煜,离开王城后,我们到底是要去什么地方呢?
——你不是说,想看海么。
——我们去找鲸落城。
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